I was listening to Zach's Consortium speech on Facebook and his comments about loyalty and integrity and honour really interested me. He was saying how he would like to see more of it amongst Satanists and he seemed disappointed that many were lacking this and behaving like the rest of the human herd. (Did I get that right, Zach?)
I have always been a really loyal person and have tried to live with integrity. And honour is everything! I have never been a joiner simply because many religious or spiritual groups then want your complete and utter devotion and I couldn't offer them that without destroying the part of myself that was curious and hungry for knowledge. I wanted to look at all philosophies - not just one.
I became a member of SIN because I knew Satanist's wouldn't want to hinder my personal quests for truth and knowledge. Satanists aren't threatened by my outside interests. I like it here because many of the things which feel right to me are incorporated in Satanic philosophy and I am an advocate for LHP. But I am not actually a Satanist because I believe in the continuous existence of energy so can't fathom the birth, death, done thing. It doesn't make sense to me and I am okay with that. It is not what this post is about.
Why I liked Zach's speech is because it made me feel like less of a loser. You see, I contemplate whether loyalty is another moral put upon us. Are loyalty, integrity and honour morals we put on ourselves to give us an identity which we can be proud of? Are we meant to step beyond these self-imposed limitations in order to meet our full potential? These thoughts make me nervous... Simply put, if honour, loyalty and integrity are meant to be transcended to acquire ultimate Godliness I don't think I am ready. Thinking about transcending those aspects of myself makes me sad.