Baphomets its been a hard and tough road for me. During my past few years I had no idea that I had PTSD, at the time I was using a lot of drugs pretty heavily to pretty much escape from the traumas that I had, I had no idea that I had those traumas. My parents at the time were busy trying to survive on their budget where I never had the chance to talk to a therapist because of that. Last December I had the chance to finally have a therapist that I've known since high school to unlock a lot of the traumas that I buried for quite some time, that was when I found out I had complex post traumatic stress disorder from meeting my therapist. Yeah, my PTSD was getting much more worse at the time since I tried to constantly escape from it by self medicating. It was tough on having to face those past traumas. I moved out of state this year for college, I am currently up in Idaho. I've been doing a lot of one on one counseling on my mental health, combined with doing meditation for PTSD, and doing legal Ketamine therapy combined with all that. Moving out of state and living on my own has been a way on getting my life together you might say. College hasn't been working out, so I am planning on getting back in construction and am looking at checking out/possibly moving to Texas for construction. I haven't been using any drugs since then, other than legal Ketamine to help my depression/ptsd. And Ketamine has actually helped me on my mental health. But yeah currently I've been just focusing on taking care of my mental health, combined on getting my life on track.