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It becomes a big production with a shiny new identity.  One locked completely in image. It then sometimes treads into oppression territory, and becomes like a liberal art major's facebook page. 

It's a college-like phase. Reinventions are fairly common. If you reinvent yourself from a bible belt demographic expect rejection from those who stayed immersed in their upbringing. Of course they will have opposition. To an evangelical this is on par with saying you were gay in 1985. 

Stereotypes, herd minded people, and predisposition to faith exist. No amount of white-washing it athiest or explaining what wikipedia (CoS) says will remove the stigma. It can't be turned into a "respectful" libertine philosophy when it embodies their evil.  

It's not something that seeks acceptance anyway. In fact, if you do that "satan" actually cancels itself out, "satano-mathematically" speaking. That to the tune of:

"Yes Mrs. Parkfield, I will done be sure to get'n that mail right quick for you, Mrs. Parkfield." 

What makes it seem like you should come out? At some point I ask myself if it's more trouble than it's worth, and if it would even impede the very part of my life that I am considering sharing with them

Only person that I ever felt I had to come out to about something was myself. And gosh, if you dig deep enough inside of yourself you'll always find something you gotta come out about to yourself 

But honestly?  If your friends/family are too brainwashed by their beliefs that they won't even try to understand yours, I wouldn't dare waste my breath coming out to them hoping that they would understand.

I wrote a blog post about the positive & negative aspects of coming out to family, friends and co-workers. In most cases it's none of anyone's business, but if you are among a group of people that are understanding, it's so much better. Satanists are stuck with the 'lone wolf' syndrome because of this, but that's what you get for leaving the flock

Satanism & Family; Coming Out as a Satanist

Hell, they took me to a psychologist to clear things up. I did the right thing though, defending and rationally explaining my religion for what it really stood. At the same time that "satanic panic" you might say didn't dissipate right away.

Even though my parents would block sites based on "porn," or "occult spirituality," I was still able to access plenty of Satanic/occult literature back then. But going back to paragraph 2 on this "satanic crisis" they had to "deal with," I remember reading through Lords of the Left Hand Path. They of course barged in my room by confiscating that material, all because it was filled with quite a bit of pages on the Church of Satan and Temple of Set.

It took me to get my ass up and to stand on my two feet to argue with them on the hypocrisy that they had, claiming to be "open minded" on what I choose to do. It got to the point where I had to yell and scream to them on giving that PDF version back to me.

Nowadays I get along with my parents pretty well, I just don't discuss religion to my mom or dad. Have I personally kept my beliefs closed off from the many people that I knew in my life that I considered as friends? Yes, have I personally not given a damn to flash my sigil of baphomet wallpaper to people that Iv'e never considered friends? Yes.

At one point for me it almost came to that where my dad gave me the ultimatum, "either choose your philosophy or your family."  "If you choose your philosophy, we do not want anything to do with you, we won't fund your college money." I of course on the inside chose my philosophy over family. I figured though that they didn't have the balls to operate cold blooded :).

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And I'm just one of many around here through the years that was fucked with by that. "Possession" is just too easy a gaslight to light when you get a gaggle of japes to talk about them at work. And always get away with it for its incredulity. They'll just laugh or fire you and say "they don't know what you are talking about"  if you call them out or threaten them.  Even if you have proof. And especially dont say "gangstalking" at any time because they are also programmed to make you feel stupid for thinking such a thing exists.  

"Okay bitch, Why did you just say 'we gotta talk about him until he thinks he is possessed by a djin? Didn't know I was 15 feet from you, did you? And since when is this fucking Islam?"

Until next episode. SBT, SBC.

a few exgirlfriends have tried to "out" me several times, calling my workplace and family, but ended up only causing harm to themselves by doing that.

one exgf spoke to my very mentally ill and very christian mom, telling her everything, my altar and all the stuff i was up to. i warned her not to and that what she was about to do was stupid and would achieve nothing. it went just the way i thought. my mom didn´t believe a word, instead now being convinced that my exgf was a satanic witch in a cult who had been ordered to kill me so she could stay in the cult. now my mon was calling her workplace and pretty much everywhere else warning everyone of her and her plans to have me murdered. the word was out. it was amazing and fun to watch. my exgf begged me to make her stop. it was so fun.

one girlfriend of mine told her family. my fault, i should have told her not to. but i assumed she would know herself what a bad idea that is and wouldn´t tell them since they were very religious.

whenever i and my gf visited her brother he would try to be polite, but the tension in him was obvious. he had some sort of exorcist come round cleanse the house everytime after i left. he had a newborn daughter and was convinced his daughter was very special unlike other children, and an actual angel sent from heaven and not just a mere human being like all the other ordinary children.

his daughter would at some point after we were gone cry (like all newborns tend to do once in a while), but he took this as proof that i had brought in demons into his appartement. hence the necessary exorcism. now everytime the baby cried, had fever or anything at all, i was always my fault according to him. his daughter being an actual angel would sense the demons i had brought in. i was a good thing though, i didn´t like going there anyway and used it as an excuse to my gf that i wasn´t coming along for the visit, not wanting him to have to go through all the hassle of having to organise an exorcism every time.

so i don´t really out myself. but having friends and girlfriends, some people eventually find out anyway, and i don´t deconstruct the altar everytime someone comes round to visit. though some people know, strangely enough noone ever asks me about it. and some girls have even seen the altar and don´t get it. they ask "is that gothic?" and i just say yeah.

Having that in mind, I would ask myself "is this the right choice for me? will it benefit me and the people / things I care about in the long run?" before taking a desicion like that.

In most cases, I would imagine that the answer is "no".