A friend of mine asked about Satanic self-worship. I wrote the following in response to his brief inquiries and reflections:
As a Satanist, self-worship means to me applying most if not all of the
categories of treatment generally regarded to GODS by other religious
to oneself, not just metaphorically or euphemistically, but honestly and
fully. I've thought
long and hard about this, in part because i sought such worship of my
Goddess and in part because i think it is an egotistical challenge to
worship myself actively, rather than merely as part of some interest in
outrage or humour.
I'd list those categories as:
•
exaltation -- supernalizing in a personal and emotional sense for the
time being of the worship; regaling those present with the glories and
virtues of the focus of worship; praising aloud and with sonic volume,
singing or dramatically portraying these virtues; celebrating the being
and character of that entity, and particularly their importance to the
worshipper and to the wider world. (lifting up from above)
•
obeisance -- subordinating oneself before that entity or intelligence,
especially physically before objects of worship inclusive of statues,
images (generally 'idols') conceived as in some way representing and/or
participating in the presence or person of the entity being worshipped;
recognizing and paying tribute overtly to the dependency we have upon
that entity, how their existence is central, essential, or of extreme
importance to the continuation of what we value. (lifting up from below)
•
ardour -- expressing emotional devotion in whatever capacity and role
is pertinent (guardian, grandparent or parent, uncle or aunt, spouse or
sibling, lover, friend, or comrade, cousin or child, pet or mascot;
reciting or reading poetry, singing rapturous love songs, recounting
tales of sweet, deep, and abiding love, attesting to the heights and
depths which this love did, could, would, or will inspire, (establishing
intimacy out of love on variable footing)
•
alliance - declaring with force and faith one's solid testament to the
entity, portraying, describing, or artfully depicting the tests to which
this loyalty and compact has been put, establishing by dint of
accompanying testimony and proof in endeavour (as by rite, blood pact,
etc.) one's thorough commitment to the cause of the other. (establishing
strength out of trust of a comparable equal)
You
ask if the things you mention count (to me) as self-worship ('with that
end in mind'? not sure what this means), and i will take them each in
turn below:
-- giving yourself adoration and devotion: too vague.
-- loving the person one has become: fairly weak, perhaps a start.
--
appreciating one's finer qualities, self-improvement, attention to
integrity, intentionality, and health: weak but a good start.
--
admiring one's own image as part of ordinary affairs: merely vainglory,
but headed in the right direction if pursued to purpose.
So
i'd have to say no they do not count, and i think i have made the
extremity and intensity of ACTIVE ENGAGEMENT OF PRAISE AND DEDICATION,
particularly in a ritual and ceremonial sense, clear as a criterion.
For
Satanists i have repeatedly made it plain that i think it will be
helpful for them to study in some detail how other religious conduct
their worship, catalogue this to an extent, as i have, and then exercise
this with respect to oneself, as i have experimentally achieved with
canonizing myself and paying tribute to myself as a saint while
attempting a communion with the Saint of Occultism.
{interlude after which further questions seemed important to put forward}
So
does worshipping oneself create a sense of other? Does worship of a god
predispose or necessitate the division of that object of worship into
an other?
Let
me broaden this a bit for philosophic purpose: ALL images of oneself
are different than oneself. An observation of a mirror will demonstrate
to us that the image is reversed right-to-left. A video reflection or
phone-camera reflection for a selfie are very close, but as soon as we
snap the photo to capture that image, the person of whom it was an image (us in the
past) is necessarily different than our present being.
Thus
the worship of oneself might be likened to a god in that we are always,
when issuing devotion or exaltation, turning our worshipful attention
to the PAST of the god. Why a god would necessarily need be different
than ourselves is nothing i can answer. Is canonization something new or
different, and does the fact that this is popularly issued by large
churches make it of a different character than (and thus a more
authentic version of) what we are doing?
I
had already identified with the Jesus character many times, with
bodhisattvas, with spiritually advanced images, prior. Prophethood,
identification of my birthplace as a holy city (on account of my having
come from it), was both arch and genuinely felt.
When
does ego outstrip the usefulness of our activities as regards ego
expansion with interest toward self-development? I suppose that once one
integrates disciplines of humility and non-self-destructive asceticism
that this curtails some if not all of the negative effects of egotism
exercises, with titles, self-re-envisioning, and dramatic rite,
role-playing, or faking-it-until-making-it.
You ask what connection there is between the object of worship and
the idol. I suggest to you that you could merge those magically and
therefore prevent any distinction through a spell (comparable to making a
doll-baby of yourself and unifying with it, but instead doing it with a
candle or a statue or a photo, and then directing your obeisance and
dedication to that object).
Yes,
there is a common TEMPORARY distinction, just like with all idols and
most states of consciousness. Very few bhakti yogis can engage in
worship sufficient that the idol *becomes* the very deity during that
worship. For most religious that is an unimportant and merely ephemeral
distinction operating during the prayers or worship event.
Troll Towelhead, Grand Mufti of Satanism